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One Runner Explains How She Came To Love The Sport

Negative self-talk is what convinced this young woman to start running. Now, she runs for the enjoyment of the sport.

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Why I Run

I used to run because I hated my body. It was my punishment for not looking the way I thought I should look. 

I wasn’t skinny enough. 

Pretty enough. 

Good enough.

My internal demons chased me, mile after mile. Any time I ran, the negative thoughts followed.

“You’re so ugly.” 

“You’re too fat.” 

“Ugh, why are your thighs like that?”

“You totally have the worst saddlebags.”

Those were all the words I heard. The words I believed. The words that still sometimes come back to haunt me. 

Throughout my fitness journey, I have found ways to deal with my body image issues. It was in finding a community of likeminded fitness individuals that I have become more confident in my abilities as a fitness professional. It was in talking about my unhealthy eating habits with friends that I was able to find balance. It was in talking about my insecurities that I was able to find ways to counteract the negative voices in my head. But I’m not perfect. Every day is different, and some days I still wake up with those negative thoughts. However, my outlook has changed. When I have those days, I have to actively work toward self love and promote the lifestyle I want to embody: a lifestyle of health and strength–of both the mental and physical varieties. 

When I have those days, I turn to a sweat session to help myself reset. I grab my spin shoes and hit a spin class. I grab my towel and head to a bootcamp session. I lace up my running shoes and hit the pavement.

I used to run because I hated my body. Now I run for a different reason.

I run to become better. Stronger. 

I run for the endorphins. I run for the feeling of satisfaction when I run farther or faster than I did the day before. 

I run because it is my therapy. I run because it helps me clear my head when I’ve had a rough day. 

I run because it reminds me of how far I have come. I run because I can see my improvement mile after mile. 

I run because I love my body and all that it can do. Why do you run?

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